I have just opened up recently publicly about my Endometriosis meaning no one has really known except my immediate family.
I’ve been hesitant because I never wanted to be looked at as wanting sympathy or wanting people to feel sorry for me. Because I don’t, I still don’t. I don’t expect anyone to feel sorry for me because I know at the end of the day we are ALL battling something and this just happens to be my fight. In no way is it any worse than what someone else may be battling.
I’ve never accepted the fact that I do have an actual illness until recently and sometimes I still don’t like admitting it. This has been my normal for so long that it never actually set in that I am sick. This isn’t normal.
I started this blog as being anonymous as I said I didn’t want people to feel sorry for me but I wanted to share my story and I needed a place where people understood me, people that understood my normal.
I come from such a small town where everyone thinks they are entitled to have an opinion on your life and honestly I didn’t want to deal with any of their opinions or their recommendations on what I should be doing to cure my endo which is why I did keep quite for so long.
But as I got more and more into writing and connecting with so many strong women I knew that I was proud of my illness, I’m proud and honored to be a part of such an amazing community of strong women. Some of these women amaze me with their strength because it isn’t easy sharing your life with people- they see the good, the bad, and the ugly and be honest not many of us share the bad and the ugly on our social media platforms. Half of people look like they have perfect lives if you were to just look at their social media.
My hope when starting this blog was just to have an outlet, an escape from my life of acting normal all the time I was able to come here and actually let my guard down and write exactly what I felt because I had people that understood.
In honor of a year here on WordPress I just wanted to say thank you. I am overjoyed at the response I have gotten. Never in a million years when I sat on my bed a year ago and wrote my first blog post thought I would be here a year later with almost 100 followers & 300 followers on Instagram. Even though it was never about the following for me to begin with now I am so happy that I have touched at least one person, I have felt relatable to one person, and hopefully I have helped at least one person by sharing my story.
I know I say it a million times but I can’t thank you all enough. I wouldn’t be here where I am today if it wasn’t for this blog. I was at such a low point in my journey with endo that I was ready to give up. I couldn’t take it anymore, no one understood me so coming to a place where hundreds of people knew what I was going through I can’t even explain to you how that felt.
So here’s to many more years of advocating along with such strong women about an illness that so many people suffer from.
Happy International Women’s Day as well. Along with of course Endometriosis Awareness month 💛